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The 54th Deadline: To Feel Joy

The 54th Deadline: To Feel Joy

There was once a point where I often blogged in a sad and quite depressing manner. I couldn’t help it. I was utterly depressed many years ago. All I had to my name was self-pity, a lot of dread and very bleak hope. I clung to that sense of hope. I held onto it at my worst. I had to do so. Otherwise, I would have been down for the count for good. Fast-forward to modern times for me. Things…

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The 54th Deadline: Emptiness

The 54th Deadline: Emptiness

It’s been clear to me that certain voids are preventing me from feeling whole as a person. Life is wonderful, but it also has a lot of bad stuff to it. Now mind you, I wonder if it’s the gloomy side in me talking, but lately I haven’t been able to feel “happy” as much as I should. Mood swings aside, I feel like I have fallen into another one of my various ruts. After going through this song and…

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The 54th Deadline: Priorities

The 54th Deadline: Priorities

There are many times where I wonder if my priorities are in the right place. At all. It has dawned on me lately that my personal priorities aren’t as concrete as I would like. Evidently, I am scatterbrained in many regards. And with this in mind, I have to be more of an adult and realize what I want, especially in the next stages of this complicated process. The other day really hit me where it counted. I was cashing…

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The 54th Deadline: Stalled Countdown

The 54th Deadline: Stalled Countdown

——————————————————————————————————————————————– The 54th Deadline: For every success, for every botch, life will always give you many opportunities. ——————————————————————————————————————————————– As I write this, I can feel tears welling up in my eyes, but I can’t quite seem to let it all out. It’s one particularly odd thing about my personal “depression” from the get-go – I haven’t been really able to cry. I feel like I have kept a lot of inner turmoil inside, and it has just been building up and…

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The 54th Deadline: Understanding Misery

The 54th Deadline: Understanding Misery

——————————————————————————————————————————————– The 54th Deadline: For every success, for every botch, life will always give you many opportunities. ——————————————————————————————————————————————– It’s been a little more than five years and counting. If I were to backtrack years ago to when I was a naive, immature college graduate with nothing more than dreams of potential success on the mind. I would probably sick to my stomach. I was a trainwreck waiting to happen, a meltdown on the verge of exploding everywhere and I did not…

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The 54th Deadline: Happy Horizon

The 54th Deadline: Happy Horizon

——————————————————————————————————————————————– The 54th Deadline: Life’s always going to give you another chance if you’re constantly persistent. ——————————————————————————————————————————————– It’s out there somewhere. At some point, I know I will find that “happy horizon” I keep picturing in my mind. This happy horizon will be the epitome of everything in life I have always wanted, just that one point where life is perfect for me. It’s something that has eluded me for so many years. Five years ago, I let myself slip into despair,…

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