My life has been making a steady crawl toward something. What is that something? I do not know. But deep down, hope tries to tell me that it will be worth all of this struggle. And boy, have I suffered in plenty of ways over the years. Sure, I have made a lot of personal milestones to get to where I am now.
But like always, I just squeak by with just surviving and never thriving. I feel like a broken record repeating myself every day.
Surviving – never thriving! Again and again.
It frustrates me because it just means I am always on the cusp, just on the verge of that real breakthrough. That next stage I want to reach is ever elusive. I reach out and just persevere, yet I never quite get there.
As soon as this weekend ends, I want to make a declaration. This blog will be the first step of many toward reaching that next stage. I have grown too weary of trying to wait it out. The time for talk is over. I must take action to rectify everything that is wrong with my life in my mind.
I have lost countless times over the years. I have because I was too weak to fight for what I wanted. I let the world pass up on me, and I fell to the wayside. I remained in the wayside for quite a while. Well, it was a year and a half to be exact. During that time, I made a decision to do something about everything that ailed me.
A few years later, I am definitely in a better spot than where I was. However, I am still nowhere close to where I want to be on many fronts. Maybe I am too ambitious. Maybe I am aiming too high up in the stars.
I don’t care.
It is better to want more than to settle for less. It is the superior choice of the two extremes.
Sure, life is not as bad as it can be, but I demand more from it. I don’t want to keep living like this.
So when this weekend comes to an end, my turning point begins.
Get ready, universe. I am on my way.
“Hope is my catalyst.” – Nhan Fiction Pham0 People like this post!