There are days where I do question what I have done up to this point. Whether positive or negative, life requires you to learn plenty of lessons.
With that said, everything you do leaves your mark in this world (even if the perception of it may seem insignificant from afar). I like to think that everything I have acquired, every random person I have met, every interaction, every skill or ambition is going to sprout into something spectacular at some point.
Some things just take time. For me, this has been many years and counting. I do wonder if I am making progress at all on those particularly grueling days.
However, I have been quite stubborn. I persist when I should have given up by now. I should have settled when the sense of stagnation settled in, and yet I keep going and going.
Am I stupid? Am I just too tenacious for my own good?
Or, perhaps deep down, I know everything can work out in the end if I continue to nurture and take care of myself to the best of my ability. Enrich the soul. Learn whenever possible. Keep being curious. Someday, just someday, the sprout will bloom into something magnificent… Or at least, one can dream!
Unfortunately, I am aware there are only x amount of “seasons” that I can keep doing this. Life won’t be like this forever, let alone long enough for me to figure it all out.
If I cannot bloom in time, then that will be it. The end. A chance to soak in the sunshine of “success” – only snuffed out by premature death. This thought frightens me. It scares the heck out of me in all honesty.
The only way I can see something grow is to keep at – no matter how challenging or impossible it may seem.
I will put everything I have to see this sprout bloom. I just have to keep believing by envisioning something amazing when all of this hard work pays off in the end.
“Progress is perseverance.” – Nhan Pham
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