The 54th Deadline: Complex

The 54th Deadline: Complex

The 54th Deadline: Regardless of failure or success, you learn. Life grants people so many chances to get it right.

“Fools ignore complexity. Pragmatists suffer it. Some can avoid it. Geniuses remove it.” – Alan Perlis

Complex – such an odd thing to describe someone. In a sense, shouldn’t we all be complex? Are we all different from one another? At the same time, there are plenty of people out there who apparently are not complex. Far from it. Or so it seems.

Pegged. It’s another odd word to describe someone.




Whatever it is – it is labeling someone as this or that.

As time passes, the more I accept that I am definitely complex in my own ways. This isn’t an attempt to grab special attention, either. I do not really fall cleanly into certain categories. I am my own enigma. A wild card. Just something completely unique, peculiar – the semantics do no matter.

The point is, I don’t feel like anyone else. Maybe it is out of “stupidity.” Maybe it’s an ego. I don’t know what to describe it as, mainly because in my heart…

Solving the Mystery

All of my life, I have denied a lot about myself. I used to question how nerdy I was. I used to wonder how tough I was. Nothing ever quite fit the mold. However, I am starting to think otherwise. The solution to this problem must stem from solving this mystery firsthand.

I need to dig deep.

I need to accept stuff about myself and roll with it.

I might not all of the answers, but having a myriad of questions is by far worse.

Sigh, I want to understand myself better.

To do so, I have to be honest.

“Hope is my catalyst.” – Nhan Pham

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