The 54th Deadline: Regardless of failure or success, you learn. Life grants people so many chances to get it right.
“I love new places, new people, new ideas. I love cultural differences, and I’m fascinated by the truth – all the different versions of it.” – Martin Henderson
The idea of severed ties is hard for me to grasp. Cutting people out of my life is something I don’t normally do. It’s not something I am comfortable with for a lot of reasons.
I cling to things. Maybe it’s due to the fact that a lot of things don’t tend to cling to me back. It sounds pathetic, but I appreciate it when people take the time to give me even a fraction of their attention for my needs.
Ugh, I am so needy. Just so needy. Not independent enough for my liking.
Perhaps I have been too oblivious to how many people I have hurt over the years in my own ways. I put the weight of my problems onto them to an uncomfortable degree. It drove people away. And so, they cut me from their lives.
I was a nuisance.
A Fresh Start
There are moments where I have to think twice about who I am and what I want to do in the near future. Everything scares me. So much uncertainty frightens me to make a proper move. All of this equates to a lack of direction and focus. I have inklings of the ultimate plan, but my execution leaves a lot of room for improvement.
Simply put, I need a fresh start with my strategy.
New plan of attack.
The people who cut me out of their lives did so for a reason. I have to learn to move on instead of dwelling on it. I cannot be feeling stuck for the rest of my life. This is not living. Severed ties or not, I have to keep working toward my hopes and dreams.
“Hope is my catalyst.” – Nhan Pham
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